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I’ve more or less moved back to blogspot, so I’m currently using cheesycoffeecat.blogger.com instead.

Just, you know, FYI.

The Get To Know Me Tag

Are you named after someone?

Have you ever read a book series called “The legend of the Ice People” (“Sagan om isfolket” is the swedish title)? My parents was both obsessed with the series (I think my parents still have all 47 books in their livingroom bookshelves). Anyway, my father claims I’m named Angelica after the character “Sol-Angelica av Isfolket” (Sun-Angelica of the Ice People), a witch. So there you have it, I’m named after a witch.

When was the last time you cried?

I’m all effed up right now, so the last time I cried was yesterday. I got so frustrated that the tears just came bursting out.

Do you have kids?

Nope. Don’t think I want any to tell you the truth, but never say never.

If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?

Wow, tough question. Not right now, not if my other self met myself as a stranger. I’m so moody right now. But as Linda (whom I stole this list from) put it before me, if “other-me” was a geeky fangirl, I would probably love her.

Do you have a guilty pleasure?

I quit smoking in January, but when I’m too stressed or feeling down (or having too much wine), I tend to smoke. And I get so annoyed with all the judgement. It’s my god damn choice.

Do you like handwriting?

LOVE handwriting! Notebooks, journals, letters, poems, novels – you name it! My writing looks like shit, but it’s so much fun to write and receive handwritten stuff.

What is your favorite cereal?

Okay, so I’ve got mayor cereal-issues! I friggin love having different kinds of cereal at home, but I rarely eat them haha, right now I think I have three unopened boxes at home. It takes me forever to finish them, but I just love the idea of having people over for breakfast and letting them choose whatever cereal they want! I think I like cheerios the most.

What is the first thing you notice about people?

At 99% of the time, I’m an EXCELLENT judge of character, i pick up on people energy real quick. Sometimes I’m wrong, but most times I’m not. So I guess I notice their energy first, as well as the eyes. Like if they smile with their mouth or not.

What color are your eyes?

Green!

Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary Movies with happy endings? Not an option? Well scary movies then, my favorite genre.

Favorite TV Show?

Some of my favorites are:
Mr. Robot, Walking Dead, Supernatural, Buffy, Arrow, Hannibal, American Horror Story, The vampire diaries, True Blood, Bones, Dexter, Orange is the new black, Orphan Black and a shitload of others.

Summer or Winter?

Gosh. I love the darkness and coziness of winter, but I don’t like it quite as much when it’s like -30C degrees cold. I love the summer storms with rain,thunder and lightning, I love swimming in the lakes and sitting on my balcony drinking wine all night – but I hate it when it gets too hot out. But summer wins 🙂

Hugs or Kisses?

Hugs, I friggin’ hug EVERYONE

What’s the furthest you’ve been from home?

Sadly, Norway.

Do you have special talents?

Remembering actors, movies and everything connected to movies really, I’m annoying as fuck. Like if we’re watching a movie, I can’t help but to say “Oh that actor also stars in *lists about ten roles*”, I remember the posters of movies I haven’t even watched. People have told me that if life was a movie, I would have a photographic memory.

Where were you born?

Sweden.

What are you hobbies?

Diving into DIY-projects, photography, movies/tvshows, books, making edits in photoshop, writing, and some other artsy stuff.

Do you have any pets?

Yeah, my whittle dark prince Damon 🙂

Favorite movie?

goooosh i don’t know. Let me name the first five that pops up: Wizard of Oz, Amelie, Battle Royale, Beetlejuice, Donnie Darko, Zombieland, Trainspotting, Interview with the vampire, Tucker and Dale vs Evil, the avengers, Shaun of the dead, Penelope, Guardians of the Galaxy,Kingsman: the secret service, Across the univers..OKAY I NEED TO STOP MYSELF NOW. But seriously, can’t choose a top ten even.

What did you want to be when you grow up?

Ha! I once scared my mother by telling her I wanted to grow up to be homeless in Paris, to be a happy-go-lucky street-performer with a guitar. Another one of my all-time wants was growing up to be a coroner. Seriously, I was an effed up kid. Other than that, normal kid-stuff. Saving the world, being a marine-biologist and working with dolphins, publish a book or become a journalist

Mr. Robot

Mr. Robot is seriously the best shows I’ve watched in a long time! I couldn’t stop watching, can’t stop obsessing and are eagerly waiting next weeks episode.

The whole feel and look of the show is amazing, it instantly draws you in. Really dark vibes with shots of well-placed bits of quirk and atmosphere. The characters and actors are so on point, especially the main character Elliot played by Rami Malek. He is nothing short of amazing.

And also (shout out to my home Sweden) Martin Wallström is brilliantly creepy as the character Tyrell Wellick, He too is amazing.

Cool to see Christian Slater in a well-written role, which he pulls off perfectly as well!

The only character I really don’t like is Angela, played by Portia Doubleday. She just feels like the, you know, typical sweet as candy, pure as an angel and the standard girl next door. I really hope she gets her hands a bit dirtier in the future, that would make her feel more real.
I’m a huge fan on Suburgatory, so it was a real treat to find Carly Chaikin here, playing a much darker character than in her Suburgatory phase, love her character Darlene so much. She knows what’s up.

The show really fucks with your head on so many levels. I trust no one and nothing.

I could ramble on about this show forever, but it’s closing in on 4 in the morning here in good old Sweden, so I think I’m going to try and catch some sleep instead.

Mas as a hatter.

Okay, so today’s topic might be a little bit to real quite frankly, but I want to write if off so screw it.

I had a blazing self-realization the other day. One that I sort of laughed off and sort off scared me. You see, I’ve been dealing with body issues, stress, expectations and social anxieties my whole life, since my early teenage-years. And I’ve always had a really strange way of coping with it all. When I’m too stressed out, I put my fingers down my throat and I throw everything up. Repeatedly. Sometimes I buy loads and loads of food/snacks/whatever first, and sometimes it’s just normal food. I don’t allow myself to ever think about this behavior, it’s just something I do when everything is crashing.

I haven’t told anyone about this. Except for this internet-friend I had a couple of years back, who lived on the other side of the earth. Back in the day when Msn messenger was the best thing ever. She had this theory that I did this to myself in order to take control over something, that I felt so utterly powerless when the stress came rolling over me that I did this to remain grounded. She then said that she thought I was bulimic and that I should talk to someone. I couldn’t deal with that either, so I just stopped talking to her.

Sometimes it’s been multiple times a day, sometimes it’s just a couple of times a week. It all depends on how the universe is rolling.

I remember this one time when I still lived at home. I was forced to take this really socially dependent job because of my family (“you’re brother and sister is working there, so you will like it too!”) and it crushed me. I threw up absolutely everything for a couple of days. Until one day I collapsed. I passed out, hit my head at the wall and felt shitty for days. Faked a fever with my parents and boy was I convincing.

Anywhoo. I’m still doing it all the time. I’m doing slightly better with the whole social aspect, even though I’m still terribly introvert. I have a stressful and social job, which is really fun most of the time. But it’s really draining, exhausting and painful too. Right now, I can’t hang out with my friends as much as I want to because i’m too tired after work. But it’s fun at the same time.

I’m at a extremely high pressured phase right now, so I’m throwing up all the time. A lot of the times there’s blood  mixed in with the vomit. I’m sorry I’m not trying to be gross, just writing down my thoughts.

I’ve been turning to google, to forums and doing some research. All the signs point to bulimia, but I don’t think I’m bulimic. I refuse to see it that way. The worst part is that when reading this, I know it’s sad and fucked up. I know. But I really don’t want to stop.

Just had to get this off my chest, now I’ll continue watching Jurassic Park before bedtime.

Movies of the Month: May

In my swedish blog I do this monthly thing where I post the movies I’ve watched during the month, So I thought I’d bring that fancy tradition this way!

So, ladies and gentlemen, I give you: “Movies of the month: May”!

I watched a lot of movies this past month. I was sick a couple of days and pretty much lived on my couch. I watched 33 new movies this month.

Top 6:

Avengers Age of Ultron

In Your Eyes

Safety Not Guaranteed

San Andreas

The Spectacular Now

Drive

Handsome Men Doing Handsome Things

Okay, so I’m a massive nerd (or as one of my all time favorite movies taught me, I’m an imagineer ). I follow way too many tvshows, watch way too many movies (will make a entry regarding that later). The tern “fangirl” make is sound like I’m a 12 year old girl crushing over Justin Bieber or whoever kids are swooning over these days. But I am, I am a 26 year old fangirl. Ugh.

Anywhoo, there’s nothing I love more than when fandoms collide. When our favorite people start hanging out. I love the bromance between Stephen Amell, Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles so very much. Will forever be thankful to Stephen Amell for pushing Jared to become more active on facebook!

And I (of course) also love and support the fight. Always keep fighting.

How to WordPress?

hey kids. So let’s get real for a second. I have a confession to make. I pretty much suck at using wordpress! My swedish blog is at a portal called blogg.se, my other english blog is at blogger and other than that tumblr is the shit.

So I have a few questions!

Where do you find awesome, free themes? Can you go into old school html-mode to change the theme as you please?  how do you follow tags (can you follow tags?) ? How to find awesome blogs to follow?

If anyone out there holds the key to the WordPress secrets, don’t be a rabid porcupine; sharing is caring!

The trees were extremely pretty though

So, I’m lazy as hell today. A printscreen from my recent tumblr-post will have to do! All true, all sad. Or funny.

Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt

I’m focusing really hard, pondering something fun to write about. But my head is way too Netflix today! Been binging “Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidth” all day (while doing laundry in my creepy-ass basement. So I’ve been running down three flights of really long stairs every now and then. Does this count as going to the gym? I think it should!). I really like the show, the pilot was kind of so-so, but guys: it gets better!

They should really allow alcohol at work, work would finally be fun! And also, I wouldn’t have to hide my vodka.

Okay, so I feel like teenager saying this (well not really, since the teenage version of myself spent most weekends locked in my room playing videogames and watching movies. Pretty much like my so called adult self I guess. Huh, that’s a sad realization for you.) but I’m really looking forward to this weekend, because I am going to get so fucking drunk. Much like Alice did in her venture to Wonderland, I too will go down that rabbit hole. My version might just be like a manhole or something, but whatever.

I’ve had an exhausting week (Do I really have to be adult? Like seriously, I just want to sit in my apartment, play videogames, eat chocolate, drink wine and cuddle with my cats. Why work, why?) so I can’t wait to get together with my weirdos this weekend.